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WANT

Stella McCartney Cage-effect satin sandals

VEGAAAAAN!

I <3 you Stella McCartney (and Paul McCartney, just to throw that in)

x

Chathurika

Also

I love Lanvin.  Lanvin is definitely not vegan.  Therefore I want this.

Lanvin Birthday canvas tote

$800.00 US

Sigh, that’ll never happen.

xo

Chathurika

Continuing in the Superficial Vein

Things that I would like to purchase/win in a giveaway/be given by anyone/steal/generally own and will one day:

(a.k.a. the investment list, mostly)

First (and most attainable):

Hunter Original Lace  Boots in Black, UK Size 3

Approximately $130.00 US, and totally what I’m getting for Christmas

(Here’s the thing, I don’t like boots.  I don’t like getting my pants wet.  I want wellies.  Hunters are the best wellies in the world and these are hot.  Done.)

Second (a ways away):

Burberry Double-Breasted Trench Coat in Stone

$975.00 US

(It’s a classic)

Third (REAL college):

Apple MacBook- 13-inch

$999.00 US

(Yes, I know it’s basically the same price as the coat above …shut up)

Fourth (keeping with the same theme):

Apple iTouch whatever comes free with the MacBook

Free

Fifth (back to the fun stuff):

Marc by Marc Jacobs Quilted Waterproof Parka

$400.00 US

(IwantIwantIwantIwant, as a vegan it’s so hard to find outerwear and I WANT)

Sixth (one day, one day!):

Hérve Léger Scoop back bandage dress

$1,350.00 US

(I love that all of Hérve Léger’s famous bandage dresses are vegan and I really like the contrast between the modest cut of the dress and the skin-tight fabric on this one.  Chic, sexy AND mysterious.)

These are just some of the things I REALLY intend to buy one day (well, maybe except for the Marc Jacobs parka, by the time I can get my hands on that it’ll be too late)- you know, the investment pieces. They are also, of course, all 100% vegan.

My next ACTUAL purchase  will most likely be:

The Little Dictionary of Fashion by Christian Dior

$19.95 US

(HOLY-! Did you-?  How did I not know that this existed?  It’s like SCRIPTURE.  I recently bought a coffee-table type book on Audrey Hepburn and sort of don’t want it anymore.  It’s just photographs- if it was Grace Kelly I would keep it, but this book written by Mr. Dior is much more valuable.  Exchange here I come!)

The soundtrack of my life right now: “Please, Please, Please, Let me Get What I Want” by The Smiths

Yes, it really is that sad.

Also, I’ve fallen in love with Mr. Hudson.

xoxo

Chathurika

Sometimes

All you need is some tough lovin’

Something my mother is an expert at…I’ve learned to ignore her when she tells me that I live in an imaginary world by making the crazy motion around her head, and instead listen to the good parts.

She’s picked up, at least, that I’m self-destructive.  I don’t know why.

Chathurikamm

Something Gorgeous

Here it is:

Devendra, his band and Cibelle in the background

Preforming

Together

On a boat

On the Thames river

…Oh how I wish I was there.

Lovely :)

xo Chathurika

(p.s. I’m listening to Christmas songs on KOST 103.5 and have a ridiculous urge to name all of the artists -PAULMCARTNEYGEORGEMICHAELJOSHGROBAN- WOO!)

(p.s.s.  If I hear Celine Dion’s watered down “version” of  “Happy Christmas” I’m going to kill myself; give me Lennon dammit!”)

(p.s.s.s. Ok maybe not kill myself, but turn the radio off, but it’s Sinatra right now so I’m content)

Not So Gorgeous

But let’s just set up the mood:  Today I had a dream that I was driving in the dark and saw a kitten that had been run over.  Seeing it move just a little, I jumped out of my car and touched it, only to realize that it had lost almost half its body and would not make it.  So I cried about not knowing how to help it and held it until the poor thing died, at night, on some random street.

Yeah, that’s basically how I feel.  I don’t even want to go into the Freudian aspects of it.

(Although, I totally would have done that in real life)

You know that scene in the previously  reviewed (500) Days of Summer where we see what Tom expects to happen on a split screen with reality?  If I could illustrate my point in that way, I would.  But, alas, WordPress doesn’t have columns.

Things My Mother Has Told Me So Far Today (aka things I generally hear on a day-to-day basis):

1.  You’re my bad karma

2.  You are ruining your life

3.  You’re a joke

4.  You’re really stupid

5.  You’re all talk

6.  You act like a bigshot

7.  I’m tired of you

8.  We should have sent you away

9.  Don’t ask me for anything

10.  Don’t talk to me

11.  Nobody is going to take you seriously

12.  You’re bringing the whole family down with you

13.  You are the reason why I’m going to die early

Things I Needed To Hear From My Mom:

1.  Are you okay?

2.  What’s wrong?

3.  Do you need help?

4.  You can do it!

5.  Don’t underestimate yourself!

6.  Do you need a hug?

7.  I love you.

My dad chose the same method today too, actually.  And you wonder why I have so little self-confidence.  I’ve tried not to internalize these sort of things for a long time, but she’s my mom.  She’s not some mean, snobby girl from school.  To be perfectly honest, I’ve never met one of those.  No one, in my entire life, has treated me meaner than my mom has.

Lovely thought.

Chathurika

“So you go, and you stand on your own. And you leave on your own. And you go home and you cry and you want to die”

“How Soon Is Now” – The Smiths

Sooooo, I finally got around to watching (500) Days of Summer.  It was… good.

Things that I liked:

1.  LOS ANGELES-  born and raised, baby ;)  It was so nice to see good ol’ LA portrayed with so much genuine love;  they didn’t  pretend that it was New York, like all other Hollywood movies do, but really almost personified the city.  However, neither of the two main characters were Angelenos- something that was a bit disappointing, especially since Zooey Deschanel (who, by the way, was named Zooey Glass Deschanel after Zooey Glass from J.D. Salinger’s Franny and Zooey which I just finished reading for my Intro to Lit class – thanks Leo from said class - which is AWESOME, I adore Salinger) is a LA native.

2.  THE MUSIC- See, I knew I should have kept up with Wolfmother after “Woman” because AMAZING !  I love the music in this movie so much (THE SMITHS-see title…we’ll get back to this later).  I am in no way a music conisiueur, but the Indie stuff is where my heart lies.  Also, how beautiful is Carla Bruni’s song “Quelqu’un M’a Dit”?

I shall show you:

To illustrate my earlier point, I had no idea Carla Bruni was a singer.  All I knew was the was some sort of  Princess Diana incarnation/First Lady of France/completely gorgeous.  But nay, she has one of the most gorgeous voices I’ve ever heard.  I’m not going to even try to describe the kinds of emotions that the soundtrack of this movie (which I am listening to as we speak) evoke in me.  If they could be so easily put into words, there wouldn’t be a need for the song in the first place.

3.  The humor:  It was wry, off-beat, and a little dark.  The most hilarious lines were placed in the most inappropriate scenes.  It’s called incongruity kids.  It’s like the plot played the straight man.

4.  Zooey Deschanel’s clothes, and apartment, and…:   Basically everything she owned.  I want.  DID YOU KNOW THAT SHE’S MARRIED TO BEN GIBBARD?  You probably did.  It’s ridiculously appropriate.  But I’m still jealous.  I heart her though, the almost-vegan/Katy Perry twin.  AND WHAT’S THIS ABOUT KATY PERRY DATING RUSSEL BRAND??  MY RUSSEL?!  Nooooooooooooo…

5.  Acting, writing, direction, editing etc. etc. blah blah blah..

6.  Autumn: Well, would you look at that, my favorite season

Things I Didn’t Like So Much:

1.  Tom:  This was by far my biggest problem with the movie, and probably the reason I didn’t moon over it like everyone else has done.  It’s not  because of Jason Gordon-Levitt; he did a fantastic job.  He was probably Tom’s redeeming factor, actually.  No matter how much I tried, I found it impossible to sympathize with Tom.  I mean, it was sad and all…really sad *cough*but I found myself siding more with his younger sister and that one girl he went out with as a blind date.  Summer told him that she wasn’t interested in being in a relationship, told him that what they had wasn’t serious- and he agreed.  He then continued to construct his own imaginary romance and then mourned over it by breaking plates on the kitchen counter and completely blaming Summer- despite the fact that she spelled everything out for him in the beginning.  Summer may have been many not-so-nice-things,  but she was honest.  Right to the very end.  And I liked that about her.  Tom was just a little too…Devdas for me.     Excuse the Bollywood reference, but really…all women want men to pine after them but…just how realistic is that? I love The Smiths, but…TITLE?  A bit melodramatic, maybe?

     In short, he was such a girl.  Geez.

Yeah, that was basically it.  I liked that it didn’t end with the typical “illogical happily ever after” because that is my ABSOLUTE LEASTFAVORITETHING ABOUT ROMANCES.  There was no romance between Summer and Tom.  There was Summer and then Tom’s fantasy, and that is where the romance lay.   And THAT is what love at first sight is.  I don’t believe in it.  LOVE, sure.  I don’t think that he falls in love with Autumn in the end; it is just the beginning of Autumn after all.  Enchantè

Besides, I’m listening to Vagabond right now and that’s all you really need to fall in love with the movie.

Maybe I’m just pathetically unromantic.  “She’s a DUDE!”  Ha ha ha.  Not.

In other news, I’m totally into Glee!  I downloaded most of the soundtrack and heart.   It’s not a revelation, but it’s fun and light and adorable.  And energetic.  There’s also an interesting satirical tone to the show which equals love for me.   So LOVE, Glee, LOVE!  It makes me happy :)

I downloaded all of Florance and The Machine’s album.  Awesome stuff.  I’ve also just discovered Cibelle, but her stuff is almost impossible to find.  :(  I’m tired ahora, I’ll post something gorgeous later.

TA!

Chathurika

I Don’t Mean to Make This an Emo Journal but…

I’m sort of an ex-suferer of  severe depression.

It used to be really bad, it’s gotten a lot better, but I still have to fight it every day.  Sometimes I feel like my mind is working against me; like there is a voice in the back of my head that I have to battle with in order to stay on top.  Let me tell you guys, once you’ve been under, it’s not as easy as it seems to get back on top.  What’s easy is slipping under again, and forgetting the rest of the world.  It’s easy to give in, I gave in today, but I never want to give in again.   

I wish I had a better support system.  I love my mom, but there no comfort there.  I can’t remember the last time she hugged me.  She’s just not that kind of person  you know, it’s abrasive to be around her too much.  My dad always tells me not to complain, that we both hate it but that’s how she is.  My dad is great with most of this stuff, but he’s a bit self-obsessed.  It’s hard to talk about myself to him.  Most of my friends don’t live near me and don’t really have any experience dealing with the sort of thing I’m dealing with.  Also, I’m really really bad at asking for help.  After taking psychology, I think I know the reason why…

Unhappy,

Chathurika

Something You Didn’t Know About Me

I’ve become far  more adept at lying for my gain than I’m comfortable acknowledging.  Shhhhh…don’t tell anyone.

Apathetic expression,

Chathurika

P.S.   My brother recently asked me who I would choose, between Johnny Depp and Russel Brand (this is a game 10-year olds apparentlyenjoy-egads).  Needless to say, I’ve been up all night. 

P.S.S  Johnny ;)